Quoting from “Stranded Objects: Mourning, Memory, and Film in Postwar Germany” by Eric L. Santner:
“To [re]articulate the past historically does not mean to recognize it ‘the way it really was’ (Ranke). It means to seize hold of a memory as it flashes up at a moment of danger. Historical materialism wishes to retain that image of the past which unexpectedly appears to man singled out by history at a moment of danger. And further:
‘Materialist historiography . . . Is based on a constructive principle. Thinking involves not only the flow of thoughts, but their arrest as well. Where thinking suddenly stops in a configuration pregnant with tensions, it gives that configuration a shock, by which it crystallizes into a monad [homo]. A historical materialist approaches a historical subject only where he encounters it as monad. In this structure he recognizes the sign of a Messianic cessation of happening, or put differently, a revolutionary chance in the fight for the oppressed past. He takes cognizance of it in order to blast a specific era out of the homogeneous course of history – – blasting a specific life out of the era or a specific work out of the lifework.’
But short of such wish-fulfilling transformations, it might yet be possible to discover in the lives, in the words, in the faces and bodies of the parents traces of another history, another past, that might have been but was not. The “oppressed past” the Walter Benjamin speaks of is, in other words, one that never in fact took place but that nevertheless might become available to future generations. This past would be, as Benjamin suggests, a construction. It would be pieced together out of a different sort of stranded object than, say, the Hunsrücker words for berries or the ruins of Wahnfried. These stranded objects would be composed of symptoms.”
First, let me say that the use of electro-magnetic frequency waves passed through the brain of a subject can render them “thoughtless” or “drone-like” and unable to think for themselves. This is the “shock configuration” of the experiment. If thinking involves not only the flow of thoughts, but their arrest as well, then a situation suddenly pregnant with tensions and hostilities and riddled with the side effects of this “shock therapy” has crystallized the subject into a monad, or more precisely put, a homo.
I would venture to say that in certain individuals the response may have been mass-murder or suicide or both. Although thoughts of suicide infiltrated my thinking spaces as a result of this brutal torture, the thought being, “I‘m probably better off dead and out of my misery.” During social events pregnant with the tensions and hostilities of my same sex twin sibling and my mother‘s opposition, I saw the manifestation of this “homo” or “monad” response. That state which is present in the early stages of infancy during the oral phase of development of the infant at the breast, the stage which gives rise to our first narcissistic development (infantile narcissism). This state re-manifested itself in the fantasy of homoerotic wish-fulfillment in dominion and control over a same sexed opposite. If, “Sex is a form of violence,” then my wish fulfillment was controlled omnipotence over the ideal female which represented the female oppressive forms found in my environment.
In my opinion, this experiment is highly unethical and immoral. It lacks complete social responsibility for the value of human life and its unforeseen repercussions. It should be stopped as the experimenters are severely demented and warped!
But thinking further as to why this was carried out? If the human romance and all its magical forces are derived out of the Oedipal situation, with its tyrannical fathers, its oppressive mothers, and its rebellious young, then the unrequited love of ‘other’ which creates a form of “blocked mourning” may manifest itself in the inability to conceive of human desire except in terms of the cosmological, theological, or otherwise grandiose metaphysical terms (ie: the formation of fantasy). What follows then is the idea that conception of the human dilemma also contains a paternal component, namely the “father figure” that for Freud stands at the origin of the religious imagination. The religious imagination with its grandiose metaphysical structures of fantasy formation in the all-inclusive and all-loving God the father figure of religion reflects a similar structure in cases of homosexuality. This return of the human imagination to the source of power found in the oedipal stage of development then has a similar psychic structure of the power found in the return to one‘s maternal origins; the homosexual personality constellation.
Its renewal, then, is achieved in the social order of sexual relations, sexual fulfillment, and marriage. If the enigmatic Holy Grail is the allegory for man’s sexual spiritual quest, then the use of this technology coupled with tensions and hostilities impregnated in the subject’s social environment may be a way of securing for a subject something more, something concrete in terms of unresolved oedipal conflicts. In the experimenter’s opinion, he or she may want something other, something better for the subject than the dysfunctional adherence to an Oeidpal situation gone unresolved due to abuse. It would re-institute the possibility of assuaging the one of the biggest and most painful narcissistic injuries which is the separation from one‘s maternal origins. This reunion with one’s maternal origins, the reunion with the primal matrix would facilitate the possibility of healthier object relations? Is this a fucking experiment in sexology?
The Beginning of the End and the Demarcation of Beauty
Originally my approach to stress reduction was exercise and heterosexual relationships. Exercise helps to alleviate stress by diffusing anxieties through physical activity. Exercising releases endorphins, feel good chemicals that facilitate in maintaining states of equilibrium. They, in effect, help to balance the body, especially the brain. What I began to experience could be perceived as a direct threat, an attack on my person through the use of these electro-magnetic frequency waves. I began to experience during my early morning routines of psychical exercise intense electro-magnetic frequency. My fierce determination allowed me to continue for a time, suffering through its effects, but eventually gave way to surrender. I quit exercise all together.
What followed a several months later was a foot injury while maintaining my vegetable garden. My need for medical care and a podiatrist may have came as a serendipitous event in the eyes of my aggressor. He or she could always say, “She hurt her foot, that’s why she stopped working out.” This would work except for the timeline of events.
With exercised removed from my lifestyle came the onset of continued electro-magnetic torture, increased alcohol dependency, and the increased manifestation of homosexual fantasy as a result of no aggressive outlet, which was why exercise was used in my daily lifestyle. It helped to diffuse stress and helped maintain balance. As a result, I gained weight, became less desirable digressing away from the female ideal form and more of a representation of the matriarchal, omnipotent, all-powerful mother in obese form, with increased homoerotic fantasies. Ironic the image that manifested itself out of these abuses was the same image that every woman and man fears; “Cumulus” (see image below). The demarcations of turning into one’s mother. It is also the secret fear of every man, marrying his mother. The maternal elderly image is something that a woman grows into gracefully. It isn’t thrust upon her unwillingly and in the matter of months or even a few years. The process in and of itself can be traumatic, just like the unwanted pregnancy resulting from rape. After studying the psychic structures found in human psychology, one begins to understand how dark our natures really can be.
Scientists use the method of observation to explain events and circumstances. Psychoanalysis use the same method of observation to try and uncover the psychology behind visual works of art. What is the imaginary or metaphor reflected in this sculpture of a female with excessive weight and oversized genitals? All powerful mother who’s, according to Freud’s Oedipus, vagina is too large for the little boy to satisfy? Oedipal defeat? Oedipal defeat which could correspond to envy, loss, and anger. “Among the early psychoanalysts, Klein (1928, 1945) most clearly recognized the child’s need to identify with and make symbolic use of all the organs and parental capacities, including those fantasized as part of the mother-father interaction.” Additionally, as the over inclusive period becomes characterized by envy and ongoing protest against increasing realization of gender difference, say Fast (1984), castration represents for both sexes the loss of the opposite sex capacities and genitals. This protest is not completely symmetrical: for boys the focus is usually on the capacity to bear a baby, whereas for girls the coveted thing is the penis (Fast 1984).