Forensic Profile of a Serial Murder Rapist (a case study)

Gary Ridgway is one of America’s most prolific serial killers. He was convicted of raping and murdering 48 women in King’s County in the state of Washington. It is, however, believed that he is responsible for more than 90 rapes and murders. He was dubbed the Green River Killer during the 1980s and, while he was successfully killing prostitutes, he was employed as a painter for the Kenworth Trucking Company.

Gary Ridgway possesses a lower IQ than average. His IQ was measured at 82 and as a child he suffered from the learning disability of dyslexia. Gary Ridgway’s mother was characterized as domineering. His mother took care of his affairs even while he was married. She handled his checkbook, and approved financial purchases to their house and marriage. At one point he became a religious fanatic and wanted his wife to adhere to the strict religious codes of conduct of his faith. Contradicting his affiliations to church worship, he liked having sex outdoors. He like soliciting prostitutes, and had a fetish for strangulation and sex with the dead bodies postmortem. His method of operation included solicitation of prostitutes, whom he would pick-up in his pick-up truck. He would escort them to a secluded wooded location and while entering his victims through the act of sexual intercourse from behind, just as he was about to climax, he would he strangle them.

He strangles his victims in a position of sexual dominance. Sex is violence. The act of conquering through sexual conquest, by positioning yourself above your partner in traditional sexual intercourse is considered a benign form of aggression. But when it reaches levels of sadomasochism, inflicting injury or even murder onto another, it crosses over the threshold of normal. Gary Ridgway then places a stone in the vaginas of these female victims. Often times, after he murders them, he re-visits them for further sexual intercourse making him a necrophiliac. Necrophilia is a sexual fetish and sexual fetishes usually develop during the onset of puberty, but they can occur as late as early adulthood. There may have been early signs of sexual aggression in former attachments with adolescent girls as well.

Gary Ridgway was a Vietnam war veteran who displayed early aggressive tendencies at age 16. At 16, he stabbed a six year old boy in the liver and left him in the woods. Juvenile aggression is one of the most prominent characteristics for establish future violent aggression in adult life; assaults or sexual assaults combined with sadistic brutality are individuals considered at risk for career long instutionalization. Gary Ridgway possessed a high libidinal sex drive, often requiring his wives to have sex with him three or more times a day.

Quotation from “Germany and the Tasks of Mourning” in Stranded Objects: Memory, Mourning, and Film in Postwar Germany by Eric L. Santner . . . .

“That is, the family was used as a sort of looking glass that would magically make one whole again, give oneself back to oneself, if only as an image. . . . This fixation is the flip side of a “depressive self-obsession,” a state of melancholy “which can be attributed less to a sense of sorrow that something has been lost than to an existential feeling that something is missing – a sense of disappointment over something which was never received.”

The onset of puberty will sometimes initiate symptoms of psychopathy. Individuals genetically predisposed toward aggressive acts, coupled with environmental facilitators. In Gary Ridgway’s case a domineering mother who appeared by all accounts too over controlling. And a father who frequently complained about sex workers in which this labeling of “undesirables” may have reinforced the splitting of the female object into good and bad parts. “To ward off anxiety, the child in his/her earliest defense mechanism splits the object into a good part and a bad part . It is the first introjections the persecutory maternal object and the subsequent defensive operation of splitting this object into a good part and a bad part that provide the basis for the primitive superego. This primitive superego is persecutory and savage in nature, consisting of the projected and introjected sadism of the child itself. It is this condition that Melanie Klein calls the paranoid schizoid position: paranoid fear of the devouring attacks of the mother and schizoid (splitting) defense mechanisms to cope with the anxiety generated.” Gary Ridgway fits perfectly into this personality profile which finds its theoretical core in the psychoanalytic works of matricide.

Gary Ridgway feels weak. His weak ego, perhaps a consequence to a lower IQ, creates the need for omnipotence over weaker, powerless, and invisible victims. At 16, he chooses a six year old to attack. Obviously because the child could not adequately defend himself. Likewise, in his adult career as a serial rapist, he chose many younger prostitutes to kill, many of the woman he targeted were aged 16 – 23. Prostitutes are considered weak. The characteristic of his method of operation profiles closely with the personal style and characteristics of a batterer or explosive psychopath. Men who beat their wives. It is likely that both his father and mother were emotionally unavailable to him. This absent parent creates a “care-giver wound,” even though the mother and/or father were present as a caregiver. Gary most likely feels like something is missing, something never received and a void that must be filled. The void is the lacunae of a superego or the ability to feel sympathy for ‘other.’

Gary Ridgway possessed a conscience state of awareness in that he realizes the law forbids him to murder. He still can’t help himself. Initially, the act of murder made him feel bad and anxious that he may get caught. He new what he was doing was wrong and against the law. However, as time went on and he continued to successfully complete each act of murder, he felt increasing comfortable with performing the crimes. Gary Ridgway is a “stranded object.” Although my conclusion is only a speculation and purely opinion, I theorize, without knowing any of the particulars of the case file regarding his parents parenting styles. I believe he used the rapes and murders of these victims as a way to magically make himself feel whole again, a way to magically re-imagine himself. When asked why did you kill them? He stated, “Because it felt good. They were weak. I like killing them because every time I killed them it was like creating a new me.” Thus, he reinvented himself as a strong, powerful, competent male upon completion of each crime. It is likely that this newly re-created ‘self’ disintegrated quickly with each new anxiety, insecurity, failure or other threat to his ego. Thus the reinforcing of a weak ego through acts of controlled violence, power, and dominance is was important to Gary Ridgway’s survival because he feels impotent, weak, and with no control.

His chronic sense of impotence, coupled with the stress and anxiety of a learning disability were the likely at the root of his insatiable need to murder young women. When anxieties are heightened, either through failures or uncertainties, the act of sexual intercourse can be used to re-establish a state of psychic equilibrium. It is likely that the act of murder, coupled with the sexual pleasure, brought relief to his perpetually insufficient ego, repairing the crack of a narcissistic wound of early childhood development where he may have never successfully navigated rapprochement crisis, or perhaps as a result of his learning disability. When he was unable to accomplish normal learning tasks he may have been verbally or physically abused for these failures by one or both parents. An opinion read that he identified with his mother. It is more likely he identified with his father.

Over stimulation causes his high libidinal drives. It is likely his high libidinal drive resulted from the stress and anxiety over uncertainties or insecurities from failures present in his work environment and/or family life. His lower IQ may have contributed to the pre-disposition of a personality disorder and to be easily over-stimulated.

What is the significance of a stone placed in the vaginas? The perpetual presence of the father’s erect all powerful phallus perhaps. According to Freud, the child interprets coitus as a sadistic violent act where the mother is damaged by the father’s phallus. The stones could by symbolic of the permanent damage wrought by the father’s all powerful phallus. This establishes his identification with the paternal image of the mother-father-child triad. Or they could be symbolic of an “in-between” symbolic space between mother and child during infancy. A symbolic space that had become invaded by a rupture in his early childhood history and one that represents the pain of the past that dwells in the invisible space of the unconscious creating his fantasized sexual omnipotence. It could also be a sign of “blocked” motherhood.

“…symptoms may be the traces of conflicts that have been repressed, that is, forgotten by consciousness but remembered by the body. The body, then, functions in this novel as a sort of writing tablet and mnemonic device of the unconscious. But this act of forgetting comes in its turn to be subjected to a secondary act of amnesia . . The failure of language.” ~Eric L. Santner



Character attributes we can establish based on certain details:

Ethnicity of Serial Killers: (usually White Males)


Probable Occupation:

Personality Attributes:


Undesirables: Not Today’s One-Word Prompt

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Discarded.   Tossed aside.   Invisible.   Uninvited. Refuse.   Repudiated.   Outcast. Despicable.   Destitute.  Powerless.   Hated.   Rejected.

The identity of the paranoid schizoid seeks out to reduce and diminish another person’s otherness. During World War II, Hitler projected onto the Jewish population the very qualities that he embodied. The Third Reich in all its derangements projected onto a population of innocent people a reflection of what the perpetrators embodied; the despicable atrocity known as Nazi identity.

The Nazi interlude took the lives of many innocent victims and turned them into destitute, despised, and powerless people. This symbolic of poverty was a reflection of the darkness and impoverished souls who orchestrated the entire event. At the navel or blind spot to this Anger, Envy, Hate, and Loss lies the assimilated brutality of an unresolved symbolic wound from a former time period, and with it all of its savage cruelty. The Aryan Brotherhood. Crips and the Bloods. Organized crime syndicates known as “The Mob.” Some of the cronyism of political affiliations and connections. Collective narcissism and the inflated self-love of his or her own ingroup. This mentality can manifest itself as the monster of infantile narcissism in the paranoid schizoid position. The symbolic of retaliation and revenge is the reflection of a narcissistic wound that can be found in adult object relations theory. If you take for example the cheating husband and the wife who, out of anger, envy, hate, and loss, sets her husbands BMW on fire, one could hardly blame her for doing so. We can sympathize with her pain and perhaps even justify it if she happened to be 6 months pregnant as well, but retaliatory anger does little good and diminishes the person performing the retaliatory act as much as it seeks to diminish the target. Inclusiveness that seeks to repair and facilitate growth and production of the whole.

“In Dante’s Purgatorio, the color that symbolized the sin of Envy was “livid” or dark blue, the color of a bruise. The covetous psychopath is one of the most common forms of personality disorder found in a capitalist society.”

In regard to the white supremacy of the Nazi interlude, and for all mental illness in general, if we cannot sympathize with these deranged killers, then a part of us will always remain just like them. For it is not enough to merely feel pity for the sick, as pity can sometimes display a type of condescending attitude. Rather, empathy displays a type of participation in the emotions of another, or to the ability to imagine oneself in someone else’s predicament, and those who truly care take action by facilitating and furthering corrective action. Schindler’s List, for example.. These people embody the opposite qualities of psychopathy; Friendship, Charity, Love, Preservation, and Restoration. These are qualities of leadership and qualities that are fostered in spiritual pursuit of higher transcendence of the human condition. This is the Courage of leadership.


Philosophical Threads Connecting Homosexuality and Expressions of Abuse Stemming from the Primitive Narcissism of Personality Disorders

First thread:

“. . . A symbolic space within the infant-mother relationship fosters the dimension of intersubjectivity, a concomitant of mutual understanding. This space, as Winnicott emphasized, is a function not only of the child’s play alone in the presence of the mother but also of play between mother and child, beginning with the earliest play of mutual gaze. As we see in Elsa First’s analysis of play using identification with the leaving mother, the transitional space also evolves within the interaction between mother and child.

“Within this play, the mother is “related to” in fantasy but as the same time “used” to establish mutual understanding, a pattern that parallels transference play in the analytic situation. In the elaboration of this play the mother can appear as the child’s fantasy object and another subject without threatening the child’s subjectivity.”” ~Eric L. Santner, Stranded Objects: Mourning, Memory, and Film in Postwar Germany

Second thread:

“The homeopathic nature of this primal work of mourning becomes increasingly evident in the oedipal stage, the next strophe in the elegiac text which helps to constitute the self as a member of a symbolic order.(To speak of oedipal scenarios is, of course, to remain within the terms of a patriarchal symbolic order and, perhaps, to address primarily, through I hope not exclusively, the experience of the male child.) In the oedipal drama the child must transform the triangulation of his dyadic relation to the mother into a source of empowerment. This triangulation or partial eclipse of the mother, which already begins with the pre-oedipal awareness of the interval between self and other, here and there, now and then, is now embodied by the father. The homeopathic “poison” that helps facilitate the transmutation of (oedipal) triangulation into empowerment was conceived by Freud as symbolic castration. In his elegant study of the poetics of mourning in the English elegy, a work to which my own thinking on these matters is much indebted, Peter Sacks has remarked on this stage of the heomeopathic procedure of self constitution:

“Henceforth the child’s sexual satisfactions and choices of love-objects will necessarily take the form of substitutes for his original desire. He will have to recognize that his sexual power is strictly limited: he cannot be the physical object capable of satisfying the desires of mother, nor can he sexually return to his earlier state of union with his origins. Instead, he now comes to posses a castrated, figurative version of such an object or power – the phallus.”” ~Jessica Benjamin, Like Subjects, Love Objects

Here are two philosophical ideas, treads of logic if you will, that connect homosexuality with the infantile (or primitive) narcissism of the narcissistic personality disorder. It is important to note, homosexuality is considered a benign form of violence where the narcissistic personality disorder can manifest itself in lethal forms.

In the beginning of life our first gaze and interaction is with the mother-other, who we do not yet perceive as individual, separate from ourselves and apart from ourselves. Instead we experience them as an extension of ourselves. This theory is at the heart of homosexuality which is actually a form of self-love or love of self in terms of love and desire for same-sex love objects. If sex is a form of violence, then the violence carried out in the same-sex relationship of homosexuality is a benign form of omnipotence over other, and when I say violence, I want to be clear that this “violence” is seen as the act of domination over another in sexual intercourse, a type of conquering if you will. Not the act of actual physical violence, but physical violence can certainly be played out in the sex play with those who have been diagnosed with gender identity disorders. In addition, the root of this self love is tied to our mothers, both male and female, because the infant has not yet learned to differentiate between female and male otherness. This theory supports why we find high levels of narcissism in homosexuality. An example in support of this would be histrionic personality disorder which many homosexual individuals can possess. This personality constellation retains high levels of narcissism and lacks empathy for other.

“She or he is marooned in a world of ruins, fragments, stranded objects that thereby take on a textual aspect: they demand to be read. The allegorical structure of baroque tragedy enacts the fallen into the disturbing opacity of a history bereft of all comforting teleologies; this fall is, however, also seen as the promise of knowledge and, as postmodern critics would have it, of the play of écriture.” ~Eric L. Santner, Stranded Objects: Mourning, Memory, and Film in Postwar Germany

So in infantile narcissism we theorize that there exists between the child and the mother-other this type of fantasy creation where the child perceives the mother-other fantasy object which has come under his domination in his imaginative and physical interaction with the child. He cries, she feeds him, although he has not come to realize her yet as another subject in her own right. The breakdown in differentiation of this mother-other subject begins during the rapproachement crisis. Over-indulgence in response to the child’s demands, or being to overly rigid becomes problematic for the child’s adequate development of ego formation.

Being too indulgent, the child never comes to fully recognize the other as separate and apart from himself, still viewing the mother-other as an extension of self, one which supplies every demand and need, the child lacks the necessary empathy to realize that this mother-other has her own identity. Her own wishes, and ones that do not include him. The struggles during the rapproachment phase, which so many parents come to grieve, are necessary for the child to realize that mother-other has a separate will of her own, one that doesn’t necessarily pertain to the will of the child, and that her needs and wishes, which are separate and apart from the child, must be met and fulfilled if peaceful co-existence is to be achieved.

Too rigid and harsh treatment of the child at this stage may compromise the child’s ego, and as the ego recedes he/she comes to feel like he/she lacks adequate control over his/her own environment. In my opinion, if this dominance over the child, in controlling all powerful fashion continues in its harsh treatment of child, than what can develop are the many possible mental illness which are carried out on the landscape of the self. In diseases like; anorexia, cutting, sexual sadomasochism, excessive exercise disorders, that is if there exists in the child’s personality constellation elements of this primitive narcissism of homosexual same-sex love as some theories in psychoanalysis has supported.

If the child has retained the phallus organ from the oedipal phase of development, the child’s ego may take the form of a castrating weapon in treatment of others. Although sexual differentiation has occurred in the psychic environment of the child in terms of the self and love of the opposite sex, this is the normal heterosexual development of a child. Child has now become a “stranded object” in perpetual mourning for the love of the other sexed parent from the oedipal phase in which he can not possess. It is the inability to mourn the lost parent that affixes itself so permanently on the individual psyche and is not considered discursive or mal-adaptive, but rather, very much needed in order to continue the life of our species in future object selection. After this phase, what follows here again is the rapprochement crisis in which the child must learn how to navigate the struggles between parent and child. If this is done adequately, the child will be given the necessary ego tools to protect the self from outside threats with enough empathy and caring, while also retaining the ability to realize the conscience needs of the self. If it is not achieved we can see something along the lines of Hitler personality; Narcissistic Personality Disorder.

But what of bisexuality? In cases where the child has identified with both the father and the mother in object selection, and what has been postulated by many psychologists is that it is one of the more balanced egos in terms of personality. Perhaps this is because it can be more benign in its expressions of dominance and control over other.

For example, I have always considered myself bisexual. What I have noticed, in terms of my own behavior, is that when I experience stress in my own environment, I also can experience increased homosexual fantasies. These homosexual fantasies have been psychoanalytically analyzed as the need to feel power and dominance over a same sexed family member. So when I experience threats that appear omnipotent and controlling, ones that threatened my personal balance and control, and which typically have appeared as family members, my behavior plays out on the “self.” Remember, “Sex is violence.” Homosexuality has been theorized to be a form of fantasized omnipotence over the same sexed other, the sexual violence over the “mother-other” who initially cared for us. What’s even more intriguing is that I was born a same-sexed twin. This becomes not so significant to my early infancy, but becomes rather important in terms of object relations in later adult family life.

Interesting too, is the use of the word écriture.  Écriture is a French word simply meaning writing or more concisely literature. As applied here it means a subject who falls into mourning, the mourning of a life that has now become part of history. Literature of course is one way of preserving the past for nostalgic reasons and remembrances, just like the psyche has preserved in it the past memories, both implicit and explicit, of our past development. They represent to us the “symbolic wounds” we constantly defend against, and play up to in our human communication and interactions with others, including the self.

The information contained in this essay is for information purposes only and are the thoughts, conclusions, and opinions of the author.

Flower Cupcakes – a summertime confection

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What you’ll need:

1 cup butter (2 sticks butter)
1 (8 oz) package cream cheese
6 eggs
3 cups all-purpose flour (Pillsbury flour or other finer quality flour)
1 teaspoon baking powder
¼ teaspoon salt
2 ¼ cups sugar
2 teaspoon vanilla
Sugared Flowers (recipe follows)
Royal Lemon Icing (recipe follows)

Allow butter, cream cheese, and eggs to stand at room temperature for 30 minutes. Meanwhile, line two 12 cupcake tins with cupcake liners. Combine flour, baking powder, and salt; set aside.

Preheat oven to 325F. In a large mixing bowl beat butter and cream cheese with an electric mixer or a KitchenAid standing mixer set on medium to high speed about 30 seconds or until softened. Gradually add sugar; 2 tablespoons at a time, beating on medium speed about 5 minutes or until very light and fluffy. Add vanilla. Add eggs, one at time, beating on low to medium speed one minute after each addition and scraping down the sides of bowl frequently. Gradually add flour mixture, beating on low speed just until combined. Pour batter into the 24 cupcake lined tins.

Bake in the preheated oven for 35-40 minutes, or until a wooden toothpick inserted near the center comes out clean. Cool cake in cupcake tins on wire rack for 15 minutes. Remove from pan. Cool cupcakes completely on wire rack.

Store cupcakes until the next morning in an airtight container, or place in a baking dish covered with plastic wrap until ready to decorate.

SUGARED FLOWERS (you’ll need to make these first, they‘ll need to set overnight to crisp)

1 large egg white
1 teaspoon water
72 flower petals; pansies, violas, sunflower petals, or gladiola petals; stems removed
Superfine sugar, for sprinkling
Clean paint brush

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Whisk egg white with water in a small bowl. Working with one flower at a time and holding it with a pair of tweezers or your index finger and thumb, brush egg wash over entire surface of flower using a small paintbrush. Sprinkle with sugar. Transfer to a baking sheet lined with parchment paper or a Sil Pat to crisp flowers. Let stand at room temperature overnight.

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ROYAL LEMON ICING (you’ll need to make this last)

2 large egg whites
4 cups confectioner’s sugar
Juice of 1 lemon
1 teaspoon of lemon zest
3-5 drops yellow food coloring

First, zest your lemon with a fine grater and then juice the lemon; removing seeds and pulp. Set aside.

Beat egg whites until stiff but not dry.  Then, add sugar, strained lemon juice, lemon zest, and food coloring. If icing is too thick; add more egg whites; it too thin; add more powdered sugar. Refrigerate up to 2-3 days.

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TO DECORATE THE CUPCAKES: Spread a little icing over a cupcake smoothly and evenly and then artistically arrange the flowers on top of the iced cupcakes. Use your imagination for creative style and personal flair.

I had a lot of extra icing left over so I scooped some into a bowl and add some green food coloring to make the petals and centers to accentuate the flowers on the cupcakes. Put the green icing into a Ziploc baggie and snip off one corner. You can use a Ziploc baggie to pipe flowers or a center unto the cupcake flowers. But you could just as easily buy some candied confections like jelly candy gumdrop or some other candied confection to accentuate them as well. Your imagination is the limit. There are a 1,000 possibilities!

After they are decorated, keep them in an airtight container with a lid or plastic covering until ready to serve. Keep refrigerated until ready to eat.

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COOK’S NOTE: These cupcakes are completely edible providing you use edible flowers. They make a great dessert for any kid’s birthday party. You can get just as creative with any candy or sugared confection when it comes to decorating. The most important thing is to use your imagination and have fun!

Recipe was inspired by Spring Cupcakes with Sugared Flowers


Elements Of Unresolved Mutual Recognition; Some Notes On Theories In Personality Formation & Fear Of ‘Other’

The usage of the phrase “she is” is an important key to the whole matter… “She is . . ..” – that intensify the fear of the other’s omnipotence as well as the need to retaliate by asserting one’s own omnipotence. She is a whore. She is a nigger. She is white trash. These are all statements of hate, and of fear of that which we have failed to understand as an unresolved unrecognized element of the differences that separate us and that failure to come to terms with both good and bad aspects of character.

The origins of the notion of matricide of course reside in Freud’s first postulating that religion is the earliest wish to be rescued by the father from primary helplessness. What we discern from this idea of “primary helplessness” is that there must existence a fear of the omnipotent maternal depths. Karen Horney (1932) began her classic essay “The Dread of Woman” with Schiller’s poem about “The Diver.” In this poem the man’s search for a woman doomed him to the perils of the engulfing deep. Horney suggests that man’s longing for woman is always coupled with “the dread that through her he might die and be undone.” In my opinion, a poem that hints at the male’s narcissism or unresolved  mutual recognition in mother-other. “This fear may be either concealed by contempt or by adoration: contempt repairs the injury to masculine self-esteem, where as adoration covers dread with awe and mystery, in whom is a secret he cannot divine, this feeling of his can only relate ultimately to one thing in her: the mystery of motherhood.” The structure and formation of many religious belief systems reflects this projection of an all-powerful father figure which emerges from the fear of the oceanic oneness, an antidote to helplessness at the hands of a dreaded maternal power.

One theory of psychoanalysis (Chasseguet-Smirgel 1976) contends that the oedipal boy’s conscious image of the little girl as inferior and lacking is because the vagina is unknown to children. The theory contends that the children only know of the penis. This position is actually an effort to repair a narcissistic wound, the sense of helplessness and dependency on the omnipotent mother, whose vagina is too large and this “primary helplessness” later takes the form of the oedipal realization that one is too small to satisfy or complete the mother. Thus, the boy is left in perpetual mourning for the vagina he could never have, the mother. This position could be compared to the psychic position of a stranded relic. Eric L. Santner in his 1990 work “Stranded Objects: Mourning, Memory and Film in Postwar Germany” compares the mass psychic wound left behind on the German population following the fall of the Third Reich after Adolf Hitler. This psychic relic wound of the mother he could never have (conquer), helps facilitate the boys heterosexuality and object selection later in life as he grows into maturity. It is adhesively fixed like glass glued to the table. During early childhood following the oedipal period, this theory contends the child accepts the transfer of power to the father as the only means by which the child can free him- or herself from helpless subjection to the omnipotent mother and enter the reality of the wider world.

Some psychoanalysts (Dinnerstein) see the escape from unfreedom by the maternal power by embracing paternal authority as problematic and asserts that it is part of a constellation that constitutes our cultural sickness. If the infant projects omnipotence upon the first person who cares for her or him, this projection can be defused only by giving men an equal role in nurturing children in infancy. Were men also to embody the dangerous, enchanting thrall of early intimacy, we could no longer split off all the envy, greed, dread, and rage and apply it to women.

Another theory which has been postulated (Benjamin 1995) suggests that mental omnipotence is a complex intrapsychic condition, not an immediate, originary state. It probably begins in the first crisis of recognizing the other, the first conscious encounter with the mother’s independence, during the separation-individuation phase in the second year of life. The infant’s grandiose aspirations now conflict with the perceived reality of her limitation and dependency. When the child becomes aware that reality will not always bend to her will, “a struggle to the death for recognition” may ensue. This period of rapprochement (Mahler) focused on mother’s leaving as confronting the child of mother’s independent aims, a point that has usually been ignored.

Winnicott gave us a paradigm for the ongoing oscillations between omnipotence and recognition throughout life rather than as a strictly sequential notion, in which the infant begins in omnipotence and moves out toward reality in a unilinear fashion. The problem that often occurs in the process of differentiation is that if the other retaliates or caves in and withdraws, we don’t really experience the other as outside us; instead of surviving and becoming real, she or he is subsumed by (seems to be) our persecutory fantasy. A power struggle is inaugurated, and the outcome is a reversible cycle of doer and done to. If the mother does not survive, a pattern is established in which there is no real other subject, no real feeling for the other. Let us imagine a mother who gives in to the child and never leaves. The child feels she or he has succeeded in controlling Mother, and this means, “Now Mommy is still my fantasy, Mommy is also afraid, and I can never leave Mommy without great anxiety, either.” Thus, even as the child loses contact with the real independent mother, the omnipotent fantasy mother fills the space. Now the child is no longer able to encompass the feeling “I am full of anxiety” but rather feels Mother must remain literally there to solve his problem. Otherwise, he experiences his fear and anger as if in reaction to a real, outside danger. Fantasy and reality are not distinct. Alternately, if Mother leaves and returns, followed by a happy reunion, the child feels that the danger – the projection of his own anger onto Mother – was not real.

Winnicott contends that when aggression is not worked through in this way, it continues to fuel fantasies of revenge and retaliation, attributed to both self and other. The whole experience is removed from the domain of intersubjective reality and becomes the exclusive domain of unconscious fantasy, positioned not as a feeling we can own but as a projection onto the frightening, dreaded object. All intersubjective experience is elaborated in fantasy, but when the other does not survive the aggression is not dissipated, experience becomes almost exclusively fantastic.

This experience was elaborated on in Amber Jacob’s book “On Matricide.” During the childhood phase described above, the child split’s the mother into two parts; one bad and one good. The bad mother is the mother who doesn’t acquiesce to the child’s demands or needs. Thus the child remains stranded in a place in which he or she fails to come to the realization that all people, including Mother, have good and bad qualities. These qualities will inevitably sometimes hurt others. These injuries are not absolute, there are possibilities to repair the damage we have caused to another through reconciliation. The worst form of this psychic structure is the position of the paranoid schizoid. The serial killer. Amber Jacobs has postulated, that this position is at the heart of mental illness, and that from working out from this position we could potentially describe the various other mental diseases like; anorexia, narcissistic personality disorders, cases of cutting, rape, and murder.

Going back to Karen Horney and her remarks from the literary poem “The Diver” and the unresolved tension, breakdown of an effective resolution between subjects that create this notion of “dreaded woman.” “It is not, ‘He says, ’that I dread her; it is that she herself is malignant, capable of any crime, a beast of prey, a vampire, a witch, insatiable in her desires. She is the very personification of what is sinister.’” The usage of the phrase “she is” is an important key to the whole matter. The symbolic equation signifies a collapse of reality and fantasy, as when analysand says to analyst, “I know this feeling I have about you has to do with my mother, but unfortunately I’ve ended up with you, who really are just like her.” All that is bad and dreaded is projected onto the other, and all the anxiety is seen as the product of external attack rather than ones’ own subjective state. The problem, then, is not simply that the male children misidentify with and the then repudiated the mother. It is also that this repudiation involves the psyche in those projective processes – “She is . . ..” – that intensify the fear of the other’s omnipotence as well as the need to retaliate by asserting one’s own omnipotence. “She is a whore.”  “She is a nigger.”  “She is white trash.”  These are all statements of hate, and of fear of that which we have failed to understand as an unresolved unrecognized element of the differences that separate us and that failure to come to terms with both good and bad aspects of character.

On The Prohibition Of Speech

Painting of World War I Soldiers After Combat

Why would someone want to, through the use of electro-magnetic frequency, impede freedom of thought and freedom of speech . . . .

“One of the most effective tools for cooperation was, and remains, speech. What form of early human was the first to attempt speech as we know it today – words and sentences expressing thoughts about the past and the future as well as communication about the present – we do not know. Our primate ancestors, of course, were capable of communicating with each other, as primates are today, with vocalizations, grunts, and wordless shouts meaning “Get out of my way,” or “Here comes something!” And until very recently it was believed that these creatures were unable to develop speech because of their limited brain power. More recently it has been suggested that a more likely explanation is their lack of the proper physical arrangements in the throat, mainly the tongue and the pharynx, to make the sounds necessary for speech.” ~Ashley Montagu, The Nature of Human Aggression


It’s important to note that communication based in grunts, motions, and facial grimaces, are limiting in light of the full spectrum of deep intellectual thought.